poem

I wrote my first poem today! ALL BY MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHH!!! I can't believe I actually did it. So here it is!

Sparkling snow

Oh, why are you so cold?

Sparkling snow

Oh, why do you hate me so?

Falling, twirling, surfing in the wind

Snows like a owl, waiting to swoop down

Freezes the trees, killing the green, 

it just makes me frown

But the snow doesn’t mind

Sparkling snow

Oh, why are you so cold?

Sparkling snow

Oh, why do you hate me so?

Frozen and blue, snows falls from the sky

Making the field misty and white

Muffling the sound, and covering the ground

The snow so cold it can bite

I just want it to say good-bye

Sparkling snow

Oh, why are so cold?

Sparkling snow

Oh, why do you hate me so?

Sledding, mushing, rolling down the hill

Filling our pants and coats with icy snow

Our noses cold, and our attitude bold

Snowmen are built so glorious that they glow

The sun comes down and egging on the chill

Sparkling snow

Oh, why are you so cold?

Sparkling snow

Oh, I could play until I was old

Family

My beliefs of family are weird, they're hard to grasp and change almost every day. I love most of my family, sometimes they get on my nerves and sometimes I just want to kill them and other times I just want to drop them in a well and pull up the rope so they can never get up. But most of the time I love them...yeah most of the time. My family is FAR from perfect, normal or even semi-normal; my family survives on yelling, making fun of each other, and fighting. At least three people of my family are fighting or not talking to each other at a time.

My family is made up of three sub-divisions; my mom's side, my dad's side (also my 'stepdad') and my father's side. I don't really see my father's side all that much, mostly because of my actually father. How can I describe my father??? Well, he's a dick, a lazy-ass, a good for nothing ass-hole that hasn't paid child-support in months, that hasn't had a job in over a year. I really wouldn't care about him not paying child-support, it doesn't hurt or help my mom, but now that I'm talking college classes next semester I really need the money. But of course he just put it off and doesn't care.

My dad's side, well that's a different story. My dad came into my life when I was 4 or 5 and hasn't left it since. He's great, but his family is a little...different. My grandma is always afraid that she's over stayed her welcome, so they don't come up ever often. And she always has something to say about the kids and how they act, look or behave. It really bugs my mom.

And my mom's side, the most screwed up side. My grandparents had two sons and two daughters, my aunt is in prison because she sold drugs and keep getting caught. She had two kids that we ended up adopting. My aunt won't get out of prison for years, we're hoping when she does get out she won't bug us. One of my uncles is a man-whore, he's getting better about it but before his current boyfriend he wouldn't be caught dead without a girlfriend. My other uncle is fine, besides the fact that he's just dirty, I don't think he even knows what soap is.

So that's my family, in a nutshell, and that should give you some insight in why I have mixed feelings about family.

A very special day!

Emotions! So fun, sometimes you can be sad, happy, psycho, mad or afraid. Just happens that today I was experiencing a tad bit of anxiety. My first college final exam was today, and I was totally ok...until I got to around fourth hour. I studied for days ahead, yet I still felt VERY unprepared. And while walking to 5th hour class with Jennifer I started tearing up and then I wouldn't stop. The whole time I was writing my notes tears were falling down my face. I was truly having a break down. My hands wouldn't stop shaking and my eyes kept going in and out of focus. Not the best day for me. But I'm very proud to say that I finish my first college class, hopefully with a decent grade! And lets all remember that today was 12/12/12, the last time in this century!

ALMOST DONE!

Happy first day for December!

I'm taking a couple of online classes and I'm ALMOST done with two of them! I just need to take my finals on Monday and then I'm done! And the best part is, I wouldn't need to come in for 1st hour. Hello to sleeping in!

I went to the doctors on Thursday and spent the whole day getting test. My mother doesn't seem to think that I'm healthy enough for her liking. Oh well, I least I got to skip a whole day of school!

Tonight my sisters have a piano recital, something I would've had too but I've been so busy that I can't practice like I used to. Which sucks because I really love to play the piano. So that's what I'm going to go do  now!!